people never fail to amaze me in there need to make others feel like crap
so jessi posted this getting to know you survey.. so basically everyones supposed to post this in there journals.. ihavent done a survey in decades so i figured why not.
1. WHAT TIME DID YOU GO TO BED LAST NIGHT? 12:00 am
2. IF YOU COULD CHANGE ONE THING OF YOURSELF WHAT WOULD IT BE? the way i handle stress, my fear of upsetting the person i love
3. PAPER OR PLASTIC? Paper
4. WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK/MAGAZINE YOU READ? right now im reading the tightwad gazette. I guess that would be cuz im a fruguality queen.
5. WHAT TV SHOW CAN'T YOU STAND TO WATCH???? hmm... I dont watch alot of tv so i couldnt tell you. I for one am not fond of rosanne.. her voice and discustingness just makes me wanna scream
6. WHAT DID YOU EAT FOR LUNCH YESTERDAY? hmmm... a grilled cheese and tomato
7. DO YOU LIKE TO BE SURPRISED? Yes.
8. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR TOOTHBRUSH? pink and whie
9. WHAT BRAND OF DEODORANT DO YOU WEAR?
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE STORE TO SHOP AT? i love my gabes.. brand name clothig dirt cheap.but i also love american eagle when i have the cash
11. WINTER, SPRING, SUMMER, or fall? spring
12. FAVORITE DESSERT? death my choclate icecream from penn state creamery... and strawberry shortcake :)
13. WHICH ONE WOULD YOU PREFER - MAID OR PERSONAL CHEF? Well i guess a maid since i already have my personal chef. its great to live with someone who was a chef :)
14. FAVORITE CANDY? recees peices
15. REGULAR OR DECAF? neither i hate coffee
16. FAVORITE RESTAURANT? Outback Steakhouse, red lobster, olive garden
17. WHAT CHARACTERISTICS DO YOU ADMIRE? friendliness, honesty, strong willed
18. FAVORITE HOLIDAY? christmas
19. FAVORITE TIME OF DAY? umm... anyu time when im out with friends doing soething
20. FRUIT OR FRUIT SMOOTHIE? Fruit smoothie
21. HOW MANY RINGS ARE YOU WEARING? one my sapphire and diamond from ben
22. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR MEAT PREPARED? medium
23. WHAT WAS THE LAST CARD YOU SENT SOMEONE? hmm.. i couldnt tell you its been awhile
24. WHAT RADIO /TV STATION IS ON WHERE YOU ARE RIGHT NOW? nothing
25. WHO DO YOU LEAST EXPECT TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU. i dunno im posting it
26. WHO IS THE PERSON YOU EXPECT TO SEND THIS BACK FIRST? ???
27. ONION RINGS OR FRENCH FRIES? french frys or as everyones saying now- freedom fries
28. DO YOU LIKE TO PLAY CARDS OR BOARD GAMES? Cards
29. NAILS POLISHED OR UNPOLISHED? Polished
30. DO YOU LIKE NUTS ON YOUR SUNDAES? no way
31. WHAT IS YOUR DREAM VACATION? austraila or jamaica
32. LEAST FAVORITE HOUSEHOLD CHORE? dishessss
33. FAVORITE MOVIE? american history x
34. DO YOU BELIEVE IN PSYCHICS? nope
35. FANCY DINNER OR PICNIC? fancy dinner
36. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE GEMSTONE? tanzanite
37. GOLD, SILVER OR PLATINUM? Platinum
38. BEACH OR Mountains? beach
new england clam chowder is just so yummy.. just a random thought :)
hey whats goin on? notta whole lotta anythin here... I just woke up.. im still sleepy as al hell but theres litle kids outside playin and sceaming and i just couldnt sleep through that any longer.. its been going on since 9 this morning... its like do ya think maybe ya can keep them in for a little bit until people are up lol... oh well...
i have done pretty close to absoltely nothing this weekend... friday night was that graduation party ad last night after work me steph nd jenn were supposed to go to dennys to chill... and what do ya know.. scott is drunk and being a living asshole which shot that plan to hell..so i ended up going back to the apartment and cleaning a litle of course its still not nearly all clean..cuz i had to do all the dishes too...
could have kicked bellas ass.. id been wondering why the apartment was smelling so bad just could not figure it out... well all of a sudden i hear bella scratching on some newspapers goin to the bathroom.. so i go over there to clean up these news papers and realize thsi horrible stench is coming from over there.. and i pick up the newspapers and whagt do u know.. cat crap everywhere.. bella had decided that ws her new bathroom.could have kicked some kitty ass thats for sure..
ben comes home today.. part of me even wonders if he wil call.. cosiderig hehasnt all weekend which seriously bothers me and makes me wonder just a bit.. what exactly has been going on that he cant call or text me... and im ure he will come home being a jerk.. just because hes in trouble with me and he does thisthing where if hes in troule.. hes gonna be a punk to me... cuz he knows hes in trouble.. blahh...
anyways igotta head out go over to theapartment make sure the door is unlocked so he can get into the house and soforth...
wow nothin from physco chick today.. hopefully that onewill last.. and she will get the point after we filed a police report against her.. i mean can i only be that lucky? lol..
im gettin ready to go to work fun times inthe sun.. mondays are nromaly really good money making nights so lets hope and pray.. knowing my luck.. ill make jack for money lol..we can only hope not... so we shall see.. but i really hope it pans out to be a good night.. with lots of money.. but. when the suns shining and nce like it is.. whichwe dont see often in these parts since its flooded with rain..it seems everyone wnats to be in there yards and bbqing and stuff....
can ya believe it rained 18 days outta may.. thats flippin ridiculus .. here it is june 2nd and it feels as though its still april.. its been all chilly and all rainy constantly.. yick! i guess its a change compared to last year when we were in the worst drought ever.. and they had to put water restrictions on everything. hell if you went to... burger king or mcdonads.. they werent allowed to give you trys cuz they couldnt wash the trays cuz of tryin to save water. so you ended up getting your food in paper bag even if you were eatin gin.. ya know i think im gonna get ready t head to work and before i go get a steak and natcho cheese chulupa.. ya all ever had one of them.. ben got one the other nght.. I ended up eating most of that rather than eating my own food. it was sooo yummmyyyyyy.......
lol.. ok .. i ust totally emssed up that paragraph.. sorry guys.. sometiems the mind thinks faster than i can type lol... and i get a little ahead of myself lol...
anyhow.. i dont know why i wrote..but i did.. so im gonna head out now...
so the wonderful chick that was sending me anoymous comments in my journal abut how shes engaged to my man... has returned in new form.. now she has started sending me text messages.. as though they are too ben saying.. how is laurie sleeping? what you cant talkt o me cuz lauries there. I love you baby you are my everything So i tell ben about it and he says i know its candice..so tehn he proceeds to tell me shes been callng every second.. texting constantly.. so he ended up going to the police station and filing a report against her... her last ex boyfriend has a restraining order against her..
its like so ben.. when we broke up.. this s what you went too.. this physco bitch...
Its just getting old.. I dont even feel like dealing with the shit. I mean what grade are we in?
I told him im worried about her trying to find me and trying to fight me. I cant fight cuz im pregnant.. ya know? hes like she knows me better thanto try to touch you adn shes tiny laur.. i was like yeah and she knows im pregnant adn cant fight back...
I just dont need all this stres while im pregnant.. but im glad hes tying to take care of it.. but still its bout to drive me nut..
this chick needs to get on up off my mans balls.. ive been with him 2 and a half years minus teh tim we broke up.. and ya know what een then i stil had his heart.. he never left me..
i know shes gonna read this.. so.. yeah. ya know.. his heart never left me and you need to get the fuck over him adn move on with your life and leave us alone to have our life with our family..
on to other news before i get more pised off.. actually there really isnt much other news lol..
i wroked today.. which sucked.. I didnt make much cash at all it was pretty slow. I have off wednesday adn friday...
Fridy i got a graduation party to go to for ty... which will be cool.. befoe my girl heads off to this summer program thing..imma miss her lots :) but it will be good to go to her graduation party. i may go to her graduation im just not sure yet...
saturday ithink im gonna have a yardsale the community is and i have a hell of alot of stuff thati could get rid of .. like massloads of stuff... especially cltohes.. im the clothes queen i haveno more room for new clothes so i guess maybe i should part with a few of them..if i can handle it lol..
my nephew was here tonight i havent seen him lately.. hes just soooo cute.. awwww.. i love my lil matty joe :)
anyhow.. im out..
and some more quotes today...
"its a strange thing we do - fall in love-knowing that if the person ever left us it would destroy us completely
"sometimes i fight so hard to get what i want yet honestly i dont know what im fighting for.
"id rather die then be a part of your pride"
"but most of the time i think that i was just never enough"
"it doesnt matter if your here or not... im alone either way
"we cant buy more time because time wont accept our money"
"youll never know the feeling of a bleeding heart"
"id like to believe in something more than a dream"
"i quit pretending you were in love with me"
"nothing gold can stay"
"i cant remember life before his name"
ugh im glad this day is over.. it was horrible...work was just absolutely horrible.. it was so dead all night. until the end of the nigt then it just got horribly busy... and trying to do my hour and a half of closing duties on top of waiting on tables was pure hell.. theres some people that make it worth it.. the ones thtwill leave you a big tip.. and ome that just make yu wanna smack them... ughh.. the joys of being server. Needless to say , i didnt even get out of work until 10:30... whch sucked.. and im sure i did a half ass job on everything so hopefully i dont end up in trouble .... But the good news is.. I HAVE OFF TOMORROW!!!
the sucky thing is.. im burnt like a lobster. I only went to the pool for a hour today..just sat and read my book.. and after just sitting there a hour.. i come out burnt like a lobster.. ughhh... Im sooo red.. and it hurts quite badly.. im so fair skinned and it sucks.. hell my brothers nickname for me is.. the fairest of them all....soo yes... i got a burn going... which isnt making me any happier...
tomorrow.. i hope to maybe do a little yardsaling.. i also gotta get tiff a wedding gift at sme point and me and ben have to be at her wedding at 3 o clock. its gonna be so weird..but im gonna take lots of pics.. one of my best friends.. from life.. is getting married.. we are all growin up.. which in its own way is good but in another way just makes you sad. to realize. thigns arent quite the same anymore. we are getting older.. we arent kids anymore.. and we are starting our own lives and our own familys..no more being young ...its just weird....
im sleepy... i guess im gonna go crawl onto my feather bed pretty soon and settle down for a nice nights slumber..
Oh yeah.. I Had strawberry pie tonght! YUMMMMMYYYY!!!! me and jenn went out for dessert after i got of...it was pretty damn goo.. YUmmmmm yummm in my tummmmm....
Oh my god.. and the most annoying toy in the world is.... CHICKEN DANCE ELMO! oh my god it sits there and sings in elmos annoying ass voice. ELMO WANTS TO BE A CHICKEN ELMO WANTS TO BE A CHICKEN>>> BAK BAK BAK.. flap your wings like a chicken.. ELMO WANTS TO BE A DUCK ELMO WANTS TO BE A DUCK>..
as far as im concerned.. Elmo wants to be a chicken.. can .. DIE DIE DIE...
ok im done now lol
some qoutes for your enjoyment...
"is it too much to ask for.. some kind of ordinary life"
"the lonlines took over and for once he knew how she felt"
"loving you , kept me alive. dont you understand"
"the days keep coming without fail"
"ive got your memory or has it got me"
"i may be emotional but i am not weak. iT takes a strong person to have the courage to cry"
"i have no clue what im doing but im determined to do it right"
"you were born a orginal dont die a copy"
"all betrayal must begin in trust"
"only i can change my life no one can do it for me "
"eventually you stop running from where you are"
"what would you do if you knew you couldnt fail"
"i wanted to be where nobody i knew could ever come"
what up? i drove the expedition last night.. ooo big pimpin lol... I felt like i was driving a truck actually but it felt awesome in that thing... just was like a bus to turn it lol... Heated leather seats.. ummm they were so nice.. iwas like ummmm my butt is sooo warm lol... I hope we get it.. i really do... Just scared we wont lol... But lets hope and pray... its sweet as hell.... EXPEDITION HERE I COME! lol..
then we went out to eat at texas roadhouse.. we had oe shitty ass server.. we always tip really well but last night we tipped like shit cuz well she just plain and simple.. suckedddd! but my chicken was yummmy scrumptious...
THen we came hoe he went out to drive the car awhile.. and i ended up going to jenns for a bit.. wich was ok.. but they were bein bitches.. i dotn know i guess just in a bad mood so i ended up gettn outta there rather quickly..
went home to the apartment.. took a nice hottttt bath and got my butt into bed...and slept like a baby till almost 11 this morn which was nice.. to just sleep in..
tomorrow is tiffs wedding.. i cant believe it.. here she is getting married.. thje first outta the group.. really makes ya feel like you are getting older when one of you gets married... im happy for her and john though... they are wonderful together.. just cant believe.. one of us is finally getting married... its scary.... ooo... i feel so old... it always seemed the thuoghts of marriage were a million years away.. and right now.. here they are all starting..t he weddings... its nuts..
im thinking about going an chilling by my pool for a bit before i gotta head to work... maybe gettign a little bit of a tan going.. and just reading my book for awhile.. i havent laid by the pool yet this year cuz of all this rain that we have been having... course my body is in no condition to be wearing a bikini so we are gonna have to be covering up... blah.. lol..
anyways i think im gonna shutup now.. just wanted to add a little entry in here....
peace
what up? notta whole lot here.. chillin out before i gotta get ready for work.. just left my girls house. i aint goin back there fr awhie.. shits gonna hit the fan..
this morn i cleaed the apartment up.. since my mans a slob lol. he helped clean last nght though and made me dinner since i was starved outta my mind. then.. we chilled on the couch with our dog bella.shes such a cutie... and then went to bed and i just slept forever.. iwas so sleepy...
i dont wana work tonight. i think m gnna have to change my hours.. i need to be home more at night.. it just isnt fair to him.. never to have me home for dinner and so forth.. so..we are gonna work on that.. couse he told me i dont have to work anymre if i dont want to. but i dont know i like working.. I just dont like working these hours. so we shal see.. i could do te house wife thing lol..
anyhow i beleve thts about it.. for today..after this entry everythings going friends only.. sorry.. i just dont need the shit...
from his "fiance" the thing is.. he was engaged once.. but she was a bitch. and engagements never count.. if the ring is vaccumed up... lol
what up what up... looks like from now on.. we are gonna have to make this pretty much friends only.. so if ya wanna be added to my fiends only list.. just let me know... and ill decide weather to add you or not.. lord knows.. some sneaky stuffs going on.. and idont need some chick. who watns to be with him...and is obsessed enough to find my joural.. reading my thoughts.. of course. id love for her to read all our happy moments... so.. maybe illmake this friends only when it matters i havent decided yet.. ben wants me to get rid of it but its like this is my journal.. i dont wanna lose all those thoughts ive written down.. so if it matters or is something important its gonna be friends only... My fan club can go nd be on her way and move onto better things... quite physco if you ask me..lord knowsi wouldnt go to the extent of searching someone up on deadjournal... its so funny she told em to leaver my man alone lol.. MY MAN ALONE? lol... yeahhh.. right... we sure be imagining some stuff. if shes thinks.. im gonna leave my man alone... Nw im all freaked shes gonna shw up there when im there.. by myself.. cuz lether starwt with me.. and... with me being pregnant .. its bad.. i cant fight... I cant have her hit me or nothing... i gotta worry abotu this baby.. oooo yeah.. one bright not..bens mom called today to see how im doing. I love her so much.. shes been so great to me thrugh all this.. such a supporter.. and just.. cares... shes great..
he tod me with mandy.. i aint got nothin to worry about.. and that the other chick was short lived.. and that ended real quick.. soo.. we shall see...
i aint stressin... bitches wont get the best of me... i got bigger adn better things to worry abotu than skanks...
haha... so... some anoymous girl has been fucking with me.. either her names candice or her names mandy.. havent figure out which one yet...I FIGURED SINCE SHES SO WORRIED ABOUT MY LIFE>.... that she would go to the extent of finding my deadjournal.. Id give her one.. specially dedicated to her... lets see here. whats that quote.. im so glad i have a fan club! Soo.... whoever the hell ya ae.. this one goes out too you...
so lets see they wanted to know whats ging on in me and bens life.. well.... me and ben ... are getting a new place.. just the 2 of us and the little one :) cant believe shes gonna be here soo soon... im excited and hes excited.. although we are scaed outta our little minds..but we are gonna make it... and we are thinking about eventually having another one..
I told h last night.. how im ready for the platinum ring with the half caret diamond in it..soo.. maybe that will be in te near future..
anyhow.. some bitch.. god knows which one it is.. decided to fuck with me.. and..is all stalking him too.. so how lovely..She claims.. shes engaged to him.. its funny how.. hes with me... but shes engagedto him.. I suppose if your engaged to him you love seeing my bra laying around and everything esle? eh? do you like my nightys? how bout my thongs? thats some funny shit.. so bitch better get her imaginary life straight.. and step back into reality.. itwould be goodfor you hunny.. obsession isnt a good thing....
But yes.. to let you now.. we are getting the place... we are having a baby.. and.. we are ... happy except for when you have to fuck with us cuz u cant let o.. remember hunny.. ive been here for 2 and a halfyears... ive had his heart for 2 and a half years.. he aint gon no where... so ... peace hoe...
i figure ill write a little something.. since significant thing have been happening in my neck of the woods.. Not sureif you all heard about the school shooting in pennsylvania... But.. it was in red lion pa.. which is 2 mins from my apartment.. I live in dallastown and dallastown and red lion connect adn really just make one big town.. itsbeen crazy around here since.. and just so sad.. and its so bad when it hits so close to home. I know kids tht go to that school. and i just can imagne what it was like as a 6th grader to see that. im 20 now and i cant even imagine seeing that. Its so sad. no one really knows what the boys motives were there were alot of rumors. like supposdly he had a hate sheetthat said who he hated adn stuff like that. But.. dr segro wasnt one to be hated. he was actually very loved. so its all just confusing as to whats going on. Its just scary.. To thnk that that happened ere.. and the thing is its happened in the same school district twice now.. thefirst time was 2 years ago when the man came in with the machette.
its just plain and simple scary and i just pray for everyone who was affected by this.. and dr segros family. RIP dr segro..
on to other news thing have been too bad around here.. Been working alot.. actually make that all the time. and just running errands and junk. Today we went adn filled out the applicaion for a new apartment. so.. maybe that willc ome through. tis actually a duplex home.. 3 bedroom basement the works and i just love it to death. so i pray igeti.. Now i just gotta come up with money for a stupid downpayment on it.. ahhh...
went to stephs this morning oo for a little bit. we just chilled and taljked about all the trouble shes in.. felonys and all.. and we dont hae a idea what t do weather she shuld hire a lawyer. so she gets less.. or weather se should jus go with a public offender. I really dont know.. I think im done rambling now though.. I just wante to write something abut that.. and hey.write something period lol
ya know.. it really hurts...but im done with trying to reach out... theres certain people who just dont want reached out too.. dont want to let you in and you cant force them.. its hard not to reach out though when you care about them so much.. and it kills you because u just want to keep saying im here im here... but.. the fact of the matter is.. they dont give a damn if your there or not... they could give a shit less..
teh funny thing is when people ae so worried bout you walking out on them.. when they are the ones walking out.. youve been waking in and yet they are accusing you of walking out.. yet your the one calling to say your worried tha you care and whatever else.. and they are th ones saying.. oh why the fuck do u care i dont give a shit that you care.. you dont care abou me.. well if that ws the truth i gues i wouldnt try now would i ?
Id say well fine fuck you too then.. But nope.. I give a shit.... I dont take it to lightly someone who was at one time one of my best friends hurtng so badly.. No its not something i throw ovr my shoulder like a grain of salt.. i give a damn.. I love her.. regardless of what she thinks...
and it fucking hurts to betreated like.. im the wrong person... Like im the one who wakled out.. I didnt walk out.. YOu shut the world out.. that that was your own bad.. your ownfault and something you are going to have to live with..but the worlds still here trying to come in even though you are pushing us away.. so maybe just maybe... you will realize.. before its too late... that theworld.. does love you..
Just had to get that off my chest
boredom takes over.. blah.. i am rather bored.. just chilling out...for now.. i gotta work tonight.. its gonna be oh so fun.. yay... lol..im rally considerng takig a nap.. ever since i came down with this cold it has knocked he crap outta me and i really havent had sufficant time to rest between.. work.. and everything else... so maybe i will lay down for a nap.. not to mention its another nasty rainy day and well.. on those days the only thing you want to do is sleep sleep sleep.. bed would defienly be nice at the moment.
last night we made dinner.. roasted chicken.. it was scrumptious and went to see a man apart.. it was a pretty good movie.. althugh at times i felt the story line was hard to understand.. but i cant lie i enjoyed the eye candy.. vin deisel.. is enough to blow ya away lol..
tomorrows my nephews birthday and it sucks czu i have to work so i wont be able to go too it :( hes turning 2 .. cant believe it..little man grows up so quickly... hard to believe 2 years ago tomorrow i was heading to the hospital in trenton cuz he was just born...
then.. wednesday is bens birthday and saturday is mine. april just has way too many birthdays in it..
ok.. i think its time to shut up.. i really just dont have .. much to say :)
ou cant be there for your friends if they dont come to you.. or call you and when they are out they never call back...
what up what up? notta whole lot is going on here.. i havent wrote in forever.. just been busy and the whole 9 yards..been working past 7 days straight today is my first day off... whew... and let me tell you i am rejoicing in it... works ok.. boss man is a real dick.. well one of the boss men.. but other than that its not so bad..im making pretty good money except for last night when it was dead and only made like 25 bucks.. whew that was horrible...
after work ive been going over to bens.. we have been doing pretty good here lately and its nice..i can only hope it continues in this way... so basically.. id say im living there.. just dont have my stuff there... i wake up there i go to work.. i come homefor about 15 mins and end up right back over there.. thats prety much my schedule.. so prety much i live there.. luckiy.. rent free lol.. i told him till i actualy live here and my stuff is in here.. im not paying no rent..
he wants us to get a new place.. but i just dont know.. im terrified after what happened last time.. him kicking me out.. as soon as we moved in together things went horribly bad.. i just dont wanna go back there again and have to worry abut all the bills all my stuff being in there.. jus everything and go through that pain all over again.. I mean yes there lots ofpain if we break up but on top of that i dont wanna have ot go through the pain of.. finally having my own place again my own freedom.. my own place to call home.. my own place to decorate and take care of.. and then its taken away from me.. plus.. being so used to having him by my side day in and day out.. and then its all gone again.. so i dont know.. im giving it thought since he wants me too.. but... pretty much.. im too scared by it..the last timewas horrible.. i have decided though if i would by sme chance do it againin the future... nothing is going in my name.last time things were so messed up.. so... he can ... keep it in his name.. cuz .. if things go wrong i cant afford it on my own.... soo... he may as well put it in his name.. im just not making the same mistakes 2 times.. soo we will see...
tonight we are heading to the movies after he makes me some lovely chicken dinner ;) going to see the latest vin desiel movie.. umm boy.. hes hot! lol.. i love vin deisel movies. for that main reason.. wonderful eye candy lol :)
so hm what else.. well. im getting nice and fat lol.. getting myself quite a little belly.. nah its not too bad yet.. but.. we are defiently working on a belly... lovely baby coming along.. making me gain weight lol..
hmmm.went shopping today.. my sisters birthday is today.. she turned 29.. my nephews is saturday and he turns two.. i got him the dr suess book 1 fish 2 fish red fish blue fish... wonderful book.. as a kid it was my favorite.. so i hope he enjoys it as much as me.. I also got him mr potato head.. I think every kid needs a mr potato head.. he rocks my socks.. and then i got him a plaid pair of shorts.. and a realy cute little shirt ...bought some stuff we have needed for the apartment...
hey hey hey fat albert.. dont ask where that came from. but fat albert rocks.. how many people reading ths journal remember fat albert movies we had to watch in school when we were wee youngins... those movies banged... am i right or wrong? lol
that was my cheerful note for the day...
most of this is just to write about the happenings in our world at the moment and my feelings on them...
last night signified we are at war with iraq.. Its scary.. i am personally scard to death.. I have strong faith in our military but i wonder over and over again did we make the right desicion. Was it a mistake to go? are we taking on more than we should. I know that.. alot has went on that needs to be stopped.. but im not sure war was the awnswer. I think most of all its hitting me because for one.. sept 11 2001 i saw that our security is not invincible like it always seemed and number 2 its my generation out there.. its my friends out there fighting maybe losing there lives.. its sad and just heartbreaking...i hope it ends quickly nd we come out on top.. i just pray for all our soilders... "these are the times that try mens souls"
However even though i do not fully support our reasoning for war.. I back my country up 100 percent as they figt it. I may not be able to acceptthe reasonings and agree but... this is my country and i stand tall and proud for it..
all i can say right now.. is. god bless america!
we will prevail!
hey hey hey.. all i gotta say today is atchoo..i am having the worst sinus /allergy attack of my life. Ive never really had problems with allergys before.. but right now they are absolutely killing me.. they started last night.. and all ive been able to do is sleep..sneeze... cry.. cuz my eyes are waterig so bad... and blow my runny nose... My nose is flippin raw from blowing it. isnt that just lovely....yayyayayaaa
tomorrow im supposed to go to my bros in baltimore and we are supposed to go to some used bookstores but if i keep up feeling like this i have a good feeling there will not be going to any bookstores for me.. only dying in my bed and slow and painful death.
i actually saw ben for a few mins today.. it was nice but still wouldhave been nice to spenda few mins with him.. i was real bitchy.. gotta love that..
i was at stephs the past 2 nights.. we had some deep meaningful conversation... and she gave me alot of compliments and filled me with praise about how good of a person ive turned out to be.. and how i dont deserve the shit igo through..I love my girl.. she will always be.. my best friend... always....
nothing can break my bond with her.. nothing... we have had somany ights but we always manage to patch things up.. nothings imprtant enough to come in teh way of this friendship... its one thats too rare and too precious...
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